GG

It's late and I am exhausted but for some reason I've been thinking about my grandma all day and just can't sleep. It's strange to me how often I think of her. It's like she's constantly there, in my head. I was extremely frustrated yesterday while driving for work with the girls. They had been in their car seats for over two hours and were both screaming like crazy. I was on the 60 about to pass Val Vista and just broke down in tears. I was so mad at her for not being there. I should have been able to exit Val Vista and drive straight to her house so the girls could get out and play. I would have caught her in her robe watching "The Doctors" or doing a cross word puzzle. She used to love it when I would drop by unexpectedly. She would try to force feed me goodies and would instantly pull out her glasses cases for Sage to play with. On my way out she would have said, "Sure love you Marianny-pooh. Make sure you shut the gate!" And she would be itching to go see "When in Rome" and "Dear John". She loved to go to the movies. I was thinking too about the time I lived with her during college. We were so much alike. We'd watch movies on tv at night and race during the commercials to brush our teeth, wash our face, get our pj's on- all before the movie came back on so we wouldn't miss anything. I catch myself every day doing things that she did. I just miss her so much sometimes it hurts. She left us so very unexpectedly and ten years too soon. We all joked that she'd outlive all of us because she was healthy and such a whipper-snapper. I know heaven's a happier place with her there to make everyone laugh, but I sure wish she was still here with us instead.